..and never come back.

So basically. Today was apparently the first day I had nothing to do. I could hit spasm the way I usually do, I could paint something on my cheek and roam around letting the world know that I'm nowhere close to sane. Something totally unpredictable happened to me today. It was weird at first. Utterly weird. It was a mixture of three head bangs and fifty slaps. I thought of pinching myself, but then, I gave up on moving my fingers. 
I want to live. I want to leave. I want to be there. Near truth, near love. I want to stay there forever. Wherever serendipity takes me. I want to float forward and never come back. Forever is a small word with a meaning that is infinite times bigger. Be it infinite times bigger. I want to pass forever there and never come back. 
Maybe, I'm not in my usual crazy-chirpy mood today, but rare-mood swings give me rare reasons to live. Always.
 Last time, this mood led to a wonderful time with myself. I explored my inner self. I discarded all the stupid thoughts that were stuck in my head. Today, I feel just the same ( a little more stupid though + a size bigger). I know what to do, to discard the stupid thoughts stored in me but I surprisingly don't want to. I want to keep them with me. Forever. I want to get into the dream-world, and never come back.